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its been 1month since you left me….

i’m still in deep pain since my grandma left me… it hurts me so much. it’s like i’m drowning without getting sure help from anyone.. i love her so much.. i regret everything that i didn’t make before. i regret that i did not say i love her so much… she left me without saying anything to me.. i know that time she needed help. but i only gave half of it.. please lord.. bring me back to the time that she still alive.. let me say to her that i love her with all of my heart. that i am sorry for being rude to her when i was young… that i did not give my full support to help her when she’s in pain.. that i still want to take care of her like she did when i was a baby. i wanna let her feel that im giving what she did to me.. i wanna hug and kiss her.. i regret everything… im really hurt. i was not expecting this kind of pain. i was not ready to face the real world that every humans must live and die… i expect that she will live a few years. Lord, bakit hnd mo ko hinanda sa pagsubok na ito?


she gave me tender love and care. and i am thankful that i had her since i was born. she gave unconditional love to her family specially for me, my husband and in my kids.





we miss your smile ateng! we love you forever! we will never forget you specially me and kids.. rhine always looking for you. he always say that she misses you everyday!..

be with God’s arm. and you may rest in peace..

i love you so much…

hope you hear my heart…


i’m still crying every time i looked into your pictures… but my heart says.. i shouldn’t be lonely because your unconditional love for me makes me contented, happy and secure…

i suuuuuppppeeerrrr love you…

god will make you happy forever.. lovelove

thank you for everything! ❤ love mwah hugs



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jealousy is killing me!

i’m in this state of my life when my heart is beating extremely fast because of jealousy. i’m pissed off since 8 in the morning until now. i end up crying because i can’t speak up what i felt. i hate him for making me jealous and for being a drunk man. i tried to talk to him about what i felt but he refused. what am i gonna do? this is so bad that i can’t help myself to cry hard. i’m so depressed. why do some girls have to wear super mini skirt and flaunt it in front of a married guy for several times? girls should wear proper clothes in a proper place.. and people shouldn’t flirt with someone who is already married. my heart is broken.. and i think only god can bring back the pieces that was broken.. please god, if you can hear me. heal my wounds and help me with my life.. i wanna have a better married life like those in romantic movies. please, you are the one who can change my life.. 😦

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killing me softly…

im in a situation where my heart says no but my mind says yes… my heart keeps on saying that i need to push tru, that i need to give love but my body and mind are tired of loving… i wanna die, i wanna skip this years of crying, pain, body aches…. i wanna grow old and counting my days of dying.. i wanna see those real people caring me.. i wanna see one person in front of me saying ‘im sorry for what i’ve done i promise i’ll make it up to you i promise i change the bad things within me’.. i will be the happiest person if that day would come… but for now i can’t see any changes in him.. i’m so tired quarelling over him every now and then.. i’m so tired listening in his lies.. im so tired on giving him full attention, im just so tired! so much pain i felt,.. i just wanna sit and be quiet for a long time.. in that case maybe he can feel what i felt tonight… oh lord, please have mercy on me.. what are your plans with my life.. please do let me know.. for i cant bear this pain anymore… 😥

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