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jealousy is killing me!

i’m in this state of my life when my heart is beating extremely fast because of jealousy. i’m pissed off since 8 in the morning until now. i end up crying because i can’t speak up what i felt. i hate him for making me jealous and for being a drunk man. i tried to talk to him about what i felt but he refused. what am i gonna do? this is so bad that i can’t help myself to cry hard. i’m so depressed. why do some girls have to wear super mini skirt and flaunt it in front of a married guy for several times? girls should wear proper clothes in a proper place.. and people shouldn’t flirt with someone who is already married. my heart is broken.. and i think only god can bring back the pieces that was broken.. please god, if you can hear me. heal my wounds and help me with my life.. i wanna have a better married life like those in romantic movies. please, you are the one who can change my life.. 😦

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killing me softly…

im in a situation where my heart says no but my mind says yes… my heart keeps on saying that i need to push tru, that i need to give love but my body and mind are tired of loving… i wanna die, i wanna skip this years of crying, pain, body aches…. i wanna grow old and counting my days of dying.. i wanna see those real people caring me.. i wanna see one person in front of me saying ‘im sorry for what i’ve done i promise i’ll make it up to you i promise i change the bad things within me’.. i will be the happiest person if that day would come… but for now i can’t see any changes in him.. i’m so tired quarelling over him every now and then.. i’m so tired listening in his lies.. im so tired on giving him full attention, im just so tired! so much pain i felt,.. i just wanna sit and be quiet for a long time.. in that case maybe he can feel what i felt tonight… oh lord, please have mercy on me.. what are your plans with my life.. please do let me know.. for i cant bear this pain anymore… 😥

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