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my letter and experience with my beloved and favorite grandma.. my ateng..

memories that won’t last….

 

40 days of struggling to your memories… 40 days of wishes that you still here in our side to comfort and give unconditional love to us… 40 days of crying because you left us unexpectedly…

it’s been 40 days since we lost communication… oh my dear grandma.. we missed you so much.. I MISS YOU SO MUCH.. AND I LOVE YOU.. YOUR MEMggoORIES WON’T LAST..

You can go now to heaven and be with GOD’s arm.. it’s 40 days already and what i have read to google, our soul stayed up in earth for about 40 days will go to heaven after that..

you may leave us my lovely ATENG.. you will be in peace now.. live in God and with happiness.. we can and will survive in your lost.. bear in mind that your love and memories won’t last.. my 2yr old son is always missing you.. :/

rest in peace…

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ATENG..

august 9,2012

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its been 1month since you left me….

i’m still in deep pain since my grandma left me… it hurts me so much. it’s like i’m drowning without getting sure help from anyone.. i love her so much.. i regret everything that i didn’t make before. i regret that i did not say i love her so much… she left me without saying anything to me.. i know that time she needed help. but i only gave half of it.. please lord.. bring me back to the time that she still alive.. let me say to her that i love her with all of my heart. that i am sorry for being rude to her when i was young… that i did not give my full support to help her when she’s in pain.. that i still want to take care of her like she did when i was a baby. i wanna let her feel that im giving what she did to me.. i wanna hug and kiss her.. i regret everything… im really hurt. i was not expecting this kind of pain. i was not ready to face the real world that every humans must live and die… i expect that she will live a few years. Lord, bakit hnd mo ko hinanda sa pagsubok na ito?

 

she gave me tender love and care. and i am thankful that i had her since i was born. she gave unconditional love to her family specially for me, my husband and in my kids.

 

 

 

 

we miss your smile ateng! we love you forever! we will never forget you specially me and kids.. rhine always looking for you. he always say that she misses you everyday!..

be with God’s arm. and you may rest in peace..

i love you so much…

hope you hear my heart…

*crying…

i’m still crying every time i looked into your pictures… but my heart says.. i shouldn’t be lonely because your unconditional love for me makes me contented, happy and secure…

i suuuuuppppeeerrrr love you…

god will make you happy forever.. lovelove

thank you for everything! ❤ love mwah hugs

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3rd day of mourning…

Tuesday

july 4, 2012

3:30 am

Nandito ako nagbabantay parin sa lamay ng paborito kong lola. actually pang 10pm- 3am ako. pero nakatulog ako kanina at nagising ng 12:30 kaya gising pa ko hanggang ngayon at umiinom ng gatas. Nagising ako kanina dahil si tatay tumaas ang BP nya, kaya natakot kmi ni mama dahil baka maulit ang nangyari kay ateng na mejo napabayaan nmin (sorry ateng sorry sorry tlga patawarin mo ako). dala siguro ng stress at walang tulugan na ginawa ni tatay para sa asawa nyang si ateng at nakarinig pa ng di magandang salita sa pangalawang anak nya kaya tumaas ang BP nya. nakakatakot dahil ayaw nmin sumunod sya kay ateng. Lord tulungan nyo kami sa lahat ng pagsubok sa amin, nananalig po kmi. buti nalang bumuti na pakiramdam ni tatay.. si ateng namimiss ko tlga. lagi ko naalala ung experience bago xa mamatay. sana nalapitan ko pa xa. sana ibalik ni Lord ung oras na un 10:30 am para binantayan ko nlng xa. naiiyak tlga ako lagi. bakit ko inuna ang ibang bagay kaysa kay ateng.. sana ok na si ateng sana di xa galit samin at wala xang kasama nung namatay xa. pagod na pagod na siguro ang lola ko kaya hindi nrin nya nakayanan. Lord kayo na po bahala sa kanya, alam ko magiging masaya sya jan sa inyo. mabait ang lola ko papasukin nyo po xa sa kaharian nyo. alagaan nyo po xa jan. Ateng kung naririnig mo ako gusto kong sabihin sayo mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita. walang sawang pagmamahal ang ibibigay ko sayo, paglaki ng mga anak ko ikukwento kita sa kanila lalo na kay rhine na mahal na mahal mo. alam ko alam mo na mahal ka rin nya. mejo bata pa nga lang xa pero ikaw ang mama nya. magiingat ka ateng sa pupuntahan mo. lagi kang magpray.. goodnight ateng.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

*puntahan mo ako sa panaginip ha. magusap tyo palagi.

* salamat sa lahat ng ginawa mo sakin. salamt salamat po ateng

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